Living In A World Within Me
Prologue:
This new Billyslate Story is a Slowburn Lesbian Love and Romance tale.
When children are a key part of the storyline, there’s minimal sexual activity if they’re close by. Also, generally, there’s little or no alcohol consumed when children are present.
All descriptive sex in this story is lesbian, with young ladies aged 18 and older. Some explicit lesbian sexual actions occasionally feature a strong, but loving woman as the definite TOP. She controls the action along with playful and sometimes firm spanking.
This 55 th and all Billyslate stories are 100% Fiction in every aspect.
Edited By Billyslate/Grammarly
INTRODUCTION
This story has been on my to-do list for nearly two years. It’s Fiction, but much of the story’s action develops from personal interactions when I studied at University in the late 1960s.
The story starts slow, allowing my readers, to understand the background dynamics fully. The sensual/sexual action starts midway into the story, continuing from that point.
It’s been a difficult story to write but I decided to Publish it on LIT for the upcoming Holiday Season.
A more extensive description of what happened at Uni is in the Epilogue, which I suggest reading if you enjoy the story.
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KIRSTEN
Screaming and Crying loudly, as I stand lost near the front door of this huge building, in a Church parking lot.
People all around me ask, “Little girl, are you lost? Where’s your Mom and Family, they ask, again and again?”
I scream louder, as if in extreme pain, not trusting any of these voices in my head. She left me here alone and scared, so I’ll never trust or talk to anybody again.
Someone else says, “Maybe, we should call the Fire Station, Rescue Squad, Police, or Child Services. This little girl may be lost and her family’s frantically looking for her!”
I scream for so long; it seems like forever and a day. My voice is barely a whisper, when My Angel From Heaven kneels, pulling me into her loving arms, “Don’t cry my sweet little one, are you hurt?”
Opening my eyes for the first time since I was dumped here like the morning trash, I stop screaming, peering upward;
Kneeling before me, I See Trust, Warmth, And Love.
Looking into her adoring eyes,” Are you My Angel coming to help me?”
She smiles, “No, sweetie, I’m Auntie Laura Jean Watson, and will take loving care of you. What’s your name little one?”
Grinning for the first time, “My name’s Kirsten and I don’t know where home is, so, I want to go home with you?”
My Angel, Auntie Laura Jean lifts and pulls me into her warm n loving chest, “I’ll take care of my darling Kirsten, and you’ll never be left alone again!”
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COMING OUT OF DARKNESS: KIRSTEN POV
Awaking from my wicked reoccurring dream, the world closes in on me, so I lethargically shower and dress.
Now. I’m sitting silently on a boulder staring into the ocean, by the sand on a Tybee Island beach. Tears flow down my cheeks like raindrops from a summer storm.
The only real person I’ve truly loved all my life, ashes had blown away in the warm Atlantic Ocean breeze, a few months earlier. Now 20 years old, I’m again almost as lost in life as I was in the Albany, GA Church parking lot 16 years ago at age 4!
I don’t truly know if Auntie Laura Jean is a distant blood relative or just an elder Church Lady, who takes me into her heart aksaray escort and home as her Christian duty.
As best I remember being just 4 years old, my Bio-Mother was unloving, yelled, and hit me a lot. One Sunday morning, she leaves me standing in the parking lot of a beautiful Church and never returns.
I’m hurting and scared, so I close my eyes screaming pitifully, not talking to anyone. At age 4, I lose trust in almost everyone in my world because of my bio-mom’s neglect and abuse.
Then this Angelic voice says hello little one, me knowing that I’m in Heaven, where I want to stay forever.
That Sunday afternoon, Auntie Laura Jean, gives me love, compassion, and adoring care. She takes me home with her, although I don’t know nor have I ever seen this warm and nurturing lady.
Some Albany Church busy-bodies search for my bio-mom or other relatives, but Auntie Laura Jean says, absolutely no way. She starts looking for another city where we can live in peace, finally choosing Savannah, 225 miles east, near the ocean.
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THE MOVE TO SAV/TYBEE ISLAND GEORGIA
I don’t remember much about my life before moving to Tybee, Island just before my 5th birthday. On Tybee, my Aunt Laura Jean works as a caretaker, for two wealthy families’ home(s).
Her pay includes money, our living onsite in a semi-attached coach house, meals, and my primary/secondary schooling, which I didn’t know for 8 years until I was 12.
Somehow, through her Albany Church contacts, she’d met someone who knows someone at Compassion (Formerly Savannah) Christian Church. The person’s relatives are members of the congregation.
A distant cousin in her Savannah family tells my Auntie, that Actress Sandra Bullock’s long-time caretaker of her Tybee Island Mansion/Estate is very ill and retiring.
Actress Bullock needs a trustworthy person as the new caretaker since she travels many months a year. Auntie Laura Jean is thrilled to be offered the job. She’ll get good monthly pay and we’ll live in the 7-room coach house (Castle For Us) including meals.
My Auntie’s distant cousin in Savannah, also helps her negotiate for Actress Bullock to pay my Tuition at Savannah Christian Preparatory School, where I graduated at 16 with honors.
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LIFE IN SAV/TYBEE ISLAND
Living with Auntie Laura Jean in Albany, and on Tybee, while attending school in Savannah, GA, are my first happy childhood memories of life.
I love the beaches and ocean, but can’t go close to the water unless my auntie takes me. Winter’s quiet with only 3000 people living on Tybee year-round.
There is a public elementary school on Tybee, but I attend Savannah Christian Preparatory School, starting at age 5, soon after we arrive. I’m in grade KI, and a church school van picks me up on Tybee and brings me home daily.
I’m an introvert and the only person I usually talk with is my, Auntie. I lost all trust in people, after understanding how I was truly dumped like garbage at the Albany Church when I was 4.
Some teachers and most students at school have never heard me talk, except to mumble present at roll-call! For this reason, quite a few people in the SAV/Tybee community are certain I’m deaf-mute, which doesn’t bother me, a bit.
Based on the School’s testing program, at 5, I spell, read, and understand nearly everything that an 8-year-old child knows. I’m excellent at math and know all my tables. My writing’s a bit squiggly, so I work hard on it, and being very introverted, no one amasya escort bothers me at school.
My Auntie Laura Jean constantly reads to me, teaches, and tests me since I’m the only person in her life. I sometimes ask if she was a teacher before we met, and my Auntie giggles cutely.
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AUNTIE’S WORK
When Actress Bullock is away, Auntie does, much of the routine cleaning alone. But she uses the same cleaning service as our Church when the main house has guests, or our coach house needs a heavy cleaning.
When she’s on Tybee, Actress Bullock often has dinner parties with many of her guests in the entertainment business. So, my auntie supervises the contract service workers for food, beverages, and cleaning.
Sometimes, I talk briefly with Actress Bullock when she’s in the Mansion. Otherwise, I’m fully silent to almost everyone living on Tybee, in Savannah, and the Church school.
Once settled in the coach house, we meet an older couple, the Emersons who own a vacation home on Tybee. They’re very nice to me, so I often laugh, joke, and talk with them.
However, they’re only on Tybee for 2-months in the summer and the same for the Christmas/NY season.
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GROWING UP WITH AUNTIE
I’m a total motor mouth with my Auntie, who asked me, just before my 12th birthday, why I only laugh and talk with her, Actress Bullock, and the Emersons.
Just starting secondary school (8 th Grade), I think for a moment, “I love you, Auntie, but don’t love most other people, so why talk to them?
“I also love Actress Bullock and her family, so talk with them when they’re at the Mansion. They treat us very nicely, with this beautiful cottage on the beach, good pay for you, and all the food we want.
“Actress Bullock and her family always hug me when they come to stay for a while, telling me I’m a quiet, cute, and smart little girl. She usually brings me nice presents, like my first Barbie Doll, a Mickey Mouse Watch, a Tablet for school, and many other gifts.
“Also, Actress Bullock gives me $100.00 every time they come to stay in the Mansion, which I ask you to save for me.”
She’s always grinning, “Kirsten, you’re such a good little girl, listening closely to your Auntie, who loves you.
“You know sweetie, one can only learn when we listen to others, like parents, loyal friends, and good teachers. So many people talk to hear themselves talk, but never listen to others.”
Then it hits me Auntie, “Oh Yeah, Mr.
“The Little Girl Who Lives Within Herself.”
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WHO IS INSIDE ME
I’m Kirsten Alice Watson and I just lost the most Precious Person/Gift in my life.
Auntie Laura Jean Watson officially adopts me at age 12, with Actress Bullock paying the legal and filing fees, and other court costs.
But she’s been Auntie for so long after rescuing me 8 years earlier, I can’t change to calling her Mom.
I remain haunted and conflicted by my bio-moms actions, of abuse and abandonment in a Church Parking lot, almost to the point of hating the word (Mom).
At age 12, I’d just finished my Fresher year at Savannah Christian with a 4.0 GPA, but, I’m virtually 100% silent in class and church. The teachers now know I can hear and speak, but accept my day-to-day silence, with me being a straight-A student.
I don’t play any school sports, but run on the beach for an hour every day, even in the rain. I also love swimming, but can’t go in the ocean alone, so only swim 2 or 3 days antalya escort a week when my Auntie has free time to watch me.
The Mansion has a Gym, which I’m allowed to use, as well as an awesome library, so I’m a vociferous reader.
My two other joys are teaching myself Japanese Jujitsu (JJJ) and Modern Dance via the WEB.
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At age 16, I graduated from the Christian School with Honors. I’m offered Full-Ride Academic Scholarships at several Atlantic Coast Conference (ACC) Universities, finally, choosing to study for an MBA at Duke’s Fuqua School of Business Program in Durham, NC.
I’m also allowed to double major in Engineering (ME) having perfect grades at Savannah Christian.
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Technically, I’m a hermit until entering Duke University at 16 to begin studying for my MBA/ME.
During my four years at Duke, I have been more active, verbally participating in classes, but otherwise mostly a loner socially.
I also found a Great Sensei at Duke, earning my JJJ Blackbelt 3rd Dan* while there.
I complete the five-year MBA/ME Program(s) in 4 years but am stressed out the first semester, without having Auntie Laura Jean’s daily loving care.
Fortunately, Actress Bullock pays for my travel home to Savannah (800 Miles-RT) on every school break during my 4-years at Duke.
Otherwise, I was extremely studious, as reflected by my graduating Summa Cum Laude, in four years, for the 5-year MBA/ME Program(s).
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TRAUMA AT HOME
During my final Spring Break at home, I’m actively seeking a job in Metro Savannah or within a 50-mile radius, when Auntie Laura Jean suddenly gets seriously ill, goes into a coma, dying 4-days later.
After several traumatic months of burying Auntie Laura Jean, settling her estate, completing my degree, and deciding my future;
“I’m Sitting On My Favorite Rock, And Truly Saying Goodbye To The Only Mom I’ve Known!”
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My whole life was before me and I intend on caring for my Auntie, giving back all she’d given me for 16 years. Unfortunately, she had a massive heart attack, dying ten days after my return to Tybee for spring break.
I’m Heartbroken that she didn’t see me walk across the stage, accepting my MBA/ME-Honors Diploma, but the Emersons attended my graduation. They’re the only Savannah Christian or Tybee-related family that I have maintained a great relationship since moving on the island.
Mr. Walter Alton Emerson my name’s Angela Marie Edwards, Chief Flight Attendant. I often make this run, and will be delighted escorting Farley back to Chicago (ORD) on her return flight.
We stop for Pizza on the drive home, and video call her Mom on Farley’s smartphone.
She’s happy with us checking in, as I tell her we stop for a special pizza and will eat it at home for a late lunch.
We’ll Zoom her after eating, and Farley settles into the vacation beach house.
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A NEW LIFESTYLE FOR ME
Zoom’s set up on our desktop computer in the library and we open our call to Farley’s Mom at about 4:00 p.m., after demolishing half of the pizza.
Another lady sits where we expect Mom, Alana to be, who explains she was called out for a moment to answer 1 or 2 quick questions.
“I’m Monica Ellen Brady, your Mom, Alana’s corporate onsite Personal Assistant (PA) when she’s in the office.”
Saying hello, “I’m Kirsten, Farley’s new friend, and hope we’ll soon be best buds,” signing as I speak.
Farley, shoulder bumps me, grins, and signs, “We’re Already Best Buds, as her Mom, Alana returns to join our Zoom meeting.
Giggling, I ask cutely, “Before we start the serious stuff, do I call you Mom, Alana?”
She laughs, “Okay Kirsten, you’ll call me Mom Alana! So, you two are now best buds after a few hours together.”